I am sitting on an airplane headed to face my biggest trial ever, and I begin to contemplate why God allows trials and tribulations not just in our time but in all history. God has allowed the trials of his chosen for as long as we have existed. Sometimes it’s because we become too arrogant to be obedient and sometimes it’s because we need to be placed where God wants us and the placement is difficult either due to us fighting or just circumstances in general. In Genesis we see Joseph who is somewhat arrogant because of his father’s special treatment and needed a bit of humbling. Due to his being sold into slavery he was in a position to help his family later in life and he was humble enough to be obedient to God’s will. I think that this shows us to always be prepared to face our trials and remember to be always humble. Even in our worst moments, our greatest trials and failures God goes before us and if we simply trust him he will give us hope and a lesson from all experiences good and bad. I am going to face this challenge head on because God is my comfort and my armor, I cannot change what has happened and I can’t change that it happened to others but I will stand up now as a knight should and try to make sure no one else is ever hurt this way again. I am terrified beyond reason but I will no longer let that stop me from doing what’s right. I ask all my readers to keep me in your prayers as I need strength and courage. Pray that I find the lesson here.

Jay

(note: this was written on the airplane and posted when I reached my hotel)